WK16: Day 2 - I'm in Good Hands

What a pleasure it was to meet my specialist obstetrician for the first time today. She instantly put me at ease and I felt incredibly confident in her ability and in safe hands. We had a frank discussion about the risks for the babies and me again and I made it very clear that up to now I had felt pressured and uncomfortable with the continued ‘advice’ to terminate or reduce the pregnancy. She explained that it was only that they see a number of cases ending with a negative outcome. I can completely understand this but I explained that I was more than aware of all the potential risks involved and the decision to proceed with the pregnancy wasn`t any easy one.  As I had explained to our fetal medicine specialist if this was an ‘assisted’ pregnancy to begin with I could probably consider selective reduction, but I am not able to think about something like this when we’ve not intervened in any way to fall pregnant with these four little miracles. I need to trust my heart and my instincts and let this play out organically no matter what the outcome. She explained to me that if the twins did start showing signs of TTTS they could look at laser of the placenta to split it in half, but obviously with the four of them anything we might try and do to save the twins could affect the other two. It hurts to think that I could risk the lives of all four of them but I truly believe  that what is meant to be will be. I had my cervix measured as well which looked good and they will now measure it every two weeks to monitor any changes. If it does shorten they will need to consider a cervical stitch which stitches it closed and hopefully delay the onset of labour. As with everything else this carries a high risk of miscarriage, so let`s hope that it doesn’t come to that! Otherwise all’s fine and I just need to carry on eating, sleeping and taking my Iron and Asprin.