WK14: Day 2 - Where Has My Appetite Gone

I’ve been struggling to find food that I want to eat the last couple of days. It feels like I’ve eaten all the healthy snack food I can find and nothing is really appealing to me at the moment. I’ve found that since my nausea has been getting better so my appetite has lessened and I’m just not feeling as hungry as I was but am fully aware that I need to be eating lots!

I looked up on the Internet today to find out why I`m getting sore ribs, as mine are feeling bruised and sore all the time and when I cough it feels incredibly painful. What I found was quite interesting. It said that sore ribs in pregnancy is from your ribs detaching themselves from the muscle to allow them to move and accommodate the organs which need to shift around to make space. I think in normal circumstances this would happen quite gradually and so you wouldn't necessarily feel it as much as I am.

I’ve been reading some amazing blogs online lately and the one I find the most inspiring is ‘Steeces Pieces’ a blog from a mum of quads who are now four years old. I’ve started from the beginning so I'm years behind her current posts, but it was so interesting to read her blogs from pregnancy till birth. She details her journey incredibly well and I can relate to everything she is feeling. Reading on further than I am is so interesting for me and also quite hard to take in. You can see that she really struggled towards the end, with things like pain and breathing difficulties. She seems to have handled it all incredibly well with such courage and strength! It’s really inspiring to read! I couldn’t help breaking down into tears when her family and friends detailed the birth and coming days with the babies. They were born at 31 weeks which is amazing, but she wasn’t able to see them for a couple of days after the birth as they had to be taken away immediately to be looked after. The pics of them were beautiful but also heart breaking to see how small and fragile they were and hooked up to a number of machines with tubes everywhere. I have read up a lot about NICU and watched a few videos (which had me in tears every time I might add) but I still don’t think anything is going to fully prepare me for the sight of my babies like this.

I also called Anna this evening, she`s a  lady I was given details of by Tamba. She also naturally conceived quads 7 years ago and it was amazing to talk to her and ask her all the questions I have not been able to get the answers to from anyone else. She was so lovely and made me feel a lot better about things. I asked her about food and she said she didn’t pack herself up with calories just to put on weight although she was advised to eat about 4000 calories a day. She had her quads at 29 weeks and worked right up until 27 weeks, which is incredible. Her babies were in NICU for 10 weeks and she said that the first two years were the hardest two years of her life. WOW this is going to be such a hard journey for Mart and I, I don't think i can really comprehend just how hard quite yet.